Is that even love ?

In the midst of everything,  I find his body amusing,  I find him attractive,  its his body that makes my blood boil , I can't even spent 5 minutes without wanting to get naked around him , is this even normal? I want to be his woman , I want all that and more would I be lose if I say I want to be his hoe too ?? Is it a bad thing to be a hoe to my man?? Is that even describes being spontaneous in a relationship or is it me who read more into this is there a relationship between us ?? Ow his married maybe this why he fucks me on his car , anyway h gets a chance , I even allow him to fuck m on my home couch 🛋,  damn my dad been sitting on the couch after I fucked a man on it .. does he even respect m ??


Would I be mislead If I label him compatible as I become myself and more when I am around him ?? Is calling him my soulmate be me jumping gun ?? How do I find a soulmate in someone's husband'?? How do you unpack all this feeling,  this excitement when I am around him ?? Is ith.  at other people's partners are fascinating 🤔 but there's more to this than what meet  n . the eye ..  o
Ixxk have the best sex life with him , I bet he also enjoys fucking me or making love to me , he forever want to fuck , he'd even kiss my coochie and utter words like "bbe you're the best , he appreciate my coochie,  he wants me to himself,  I bet he got his gun for me , I wanna buy his story of protecting himself, he  is a people's person but why would he fire randomly around me ?? It's him giving warning vibes that I shall only be his woman , that no person shall mess with his territory?? It's his eyes that's so deceiving on me , it's how he looks at me that I see sparks of love,  ow dear God whom am I fooling ?? He went n registered his marriage while I gave him the best love and best sex life , to cherry it on top I gave him an heir , a boy child something he been yearning , why am I exactly